Monday, June 28, 2010
Wow... beauty beyond the flower. Shame on me for not noticing it before.
Everything has a shelf life... : )
We rarely think of our own , and rarely think of those of others in our lives, unless we know it's near by...
The part that is so difficult, of course is experiencing the actual loss of a shelf life... period. No matter of circumstance... but it becomes a different kind of loss when that shelf life was cut in half... out of the blue, with no rhyme or reason that can be assigned to it.
I want to say that... the reason I feel like this now is due to an abundant amount of grief ( in a bizarre short period of time) shared by some of the people I care about most on the planet.
I want who ever reads this to know that the loss I speak of is personal to me, but not necessarily my personal own... and this is in the order of events....
Many people don't relate to this... but I'm in love with my hounds beyond.....whatever.......
Some of our closest friends have had to euthanize two of the most fantastic animals within a year.
Dogs shelf life ... one of my main beefs in life... don't even get me started! Shanna and Maggie ♥
The closest to my extended family , is my brother in laws mother... who was an inspirational woman who I unfortunately did not know well enough... the loss is mine, I'm certain of this. Nora's shelf life was cut in half by a disease, not necessarily age... she had many grand years ahead of her, that were robbed of her by alzheimers. I grieve her death mostly for my brother in law, and my precious niece and nephew, as they were also robbed... due to her shelf life.
Most tragic to me was the loss of a wonderfully, innocent, extremely pleasant, and talented young lady. Alayna Bowman...a 16 year old with her whole life ahead of her. Her shelf life was cut waaaaaay short due to a young 22 year old drunk driver. Alayna was one of my nieces childhood friends. She was destined to , and most certainly would have had a wonderful life ahead of her.
And then we have Big Jim... who just happens to be the father of one of my dearest and most cherished friends...EVER. What a shelf life he had!!! If anyone was the recharger bunny... it was Big Jim. And deserving so... doesn't even begin to describe it. He always had a goal in life and met every one of them... He fought the good fight... all his life and WON.
His legacy will be forever lasting....and how could it not with 13 children!! : ) But I need to add how... his legacy will live on, with bravery and honor... for all who new him, and were better for it.
With a heavy heart... I respectfully love and cherish all my friends and family thru this difficult period of time. And I embrace evermore, the reminder of our "shelf life" ... that we all have one, but that there is always the beauty forever left behind....the SpeNt.....
xoxo ~ ajae
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Sure, I get on kicks and organize this and that, but sooner or later I slip back into my old ways.
Don't get me wrong... my house isn't a pigsty and I don't live like they do on the show Hoarders. ( but I admit I love that show!) My main issues are with my own personal areas... like... my studio, closet, bathroom counter, my car.... ( the car part is cuz I vendor at a fleamarket, so it's kinda the nature of the beast) but none of it is really that bad because I ... "me , myself and I" seem to manage just fine. I think alot of arty folks are just like me....
"Creative Chaos " they say, right? Really though ... who wouldn't agree that sometimes, in the thros of it all... it's just too hard to stop and pick up .... cuz crazy good stuff is still floowwwinngggg.............
This is Slydog Studio on a "good day".... notice of my peep in the window! I call her Jezebelle♥ she keeps me company on most days.
Even though I've made peace with this aspect of me.... I will still strive to improve this area of my life, on my terms when the notion strikes me.
I've become very aware and realize the fact that, I've been this way my whole life..... and accept this about myself. I do it graciously... so as to stop with the inner struggle. It's really such a non-issue in the big scheme of things.
"That's good... one less thing" - Forrest... Forrest Gump.
xoxo ya'll.... ajae
ps ... I love mater, mayo and potato chip sandwiches.... my first tomatoes of the season are almost ripe : )